Well the title says it all. And I'm over it.
He has been really insensitive lately and I'm not sure what is up.
I've been having fertility issues for almost 2 years now and decided to really put in the effort to get pregnant(lifestyle change, extra vitamins, working out,etc).. Its caused an extreme self abhorrance because I feel less than a woman. But more of that later(or never).
Strike one began 2 weeks ago, after a weekend of having an amazing time celebrating his birthday, I gently shook his shoulder asking him to wake up the morning after because we had to go somewhere or we would be late. I literally got cursed out and was told to leave him the f* alone. I went out by myself that day.
Earlier this week, He asked me a question 4 times and I answered all 4 times but apparently the answer wasnt to his satisfaction so he asked a 5th time(he does that alot).. that's when I got an attitude and snapped on him. He responded with "if you dont have patience with me, how do you expect to have patience with our child. What are you, trying to get pregnant just to throw them in a wall when you get mad later?"
That hurt. Alot. To the point of where I'm in tears now just repeating it.
He apologized after laughing in my face(another annoying habit) trying to explain that he thought I would take it as a joke. Right....
Last night I asked him if his siblings will be sending their portion of the cell bill soon(awful idea). He said he wasnt sure but would reach out. He paused and was then like why are you making a big deal out of the bill when you went shopping earlier.
I told him that I went shopping with my own money and shouldn't have to front their portion of the bill. Plus I thought he would just cash app me later. He went on this long tirade of him supporting my shopping habit without him knowing and how he "feels that I'm lying" and I'm taking advantage of him.
I can't stand being called a liar as I despise them. He knows this and chose to not believe me or just to piss me off.
I make more than my husband and I never make that a known fact until last night. I went off. Not my proudest moment. And went to bed in tears.
I want to runaway. Our marriage has had issues from porn addiction down to him just being lazy.
My patience is getting thin. I got married with the premise of for better or worse. But I didn't expect to suffer through it. I'm 26 and we have been in love for 10 years. He is my first everything. I do everything a "good wife " should. I'm losing my mind and feel like it's all my fault. I picked up the bad habits his parents instilled in him hoping he would grow up.
I started seeing a counselor last week because I feel depressed. Comes to found out I am. And he knows it but still pushes me.
I need advice. I'm not sure what to do.