So it has been about 6/7ish months since my break up. I have moved past it and come to terms with everything. I started talking to someone again that I used to date a while back, we were in a long term relationship for 3 years. On top of that, we grew up together. I've known him since I was about 7 yrs old and our parents were really good friends.
I have always remained in contact with him throughout everything, despite our break up from years ago. He has never gotten into another relationship since being with me, which was about 5/6 years ago, and he has always wanted to be with me again. He has always been the love of my life, but I ended it because he didn't show me love in the ways I wanted to be shown love. He thought by saying he loved me was enough, but I wanted to feel it more in actions like spending more time with me rather than choosing to spend it with friends or working on his car. We were both young and both made mistakes, and he realized that he should've treated me better after I left him.
Since we grew up together, we know a lot of the same people. His friends and family still tell me up until this day that he really loves me and does not even have the desire to be with anyone else.
He ended up moving to Colorado to work for some friends (yes, at a weed dispensary) about 2 years after we broke up, because he took it very hard. He moved back here to South Florida a few months ago because he wanted to try making things work for us. He is a licensed mechanic and works at a shop down here now, and is trying to get things set up to be able to be with me. I understand it takes time, and I won't lie that I can be impatient. I have been trying to be patient.
I made him upset with me by making him feel that he is not doing enough to make things better than the first time. I am a way better communicator on my feelings than he is, and he just tries to avoid it because he thinks it will turn into an argument. It kills me when I feel like I am not understood or heard, and he can't understand that. I really do love him and care about him..and I know he does love and care about me as well. I don't want to push him away, but I also need him to understand how I feel. I think sometimes he feels that I don't love him, so I've been trying to show him that I do.
I need help with 2 things...
One, I need help in what to say to him to make him understand. I've tried it my way of telling him my feelings. Maybe there's a better way? We are both 26 and into older music, his dedication to me is la vie en rose by Louis Armstrong. (To give an idea)
Two, I need insight on how this should be handled and to hear your thoughts? Similar experiences?