I'm really embarrassed to be posting about this at my age!
I've been with my boyfriend for almost a year. He is 9 years younger than me, I rarely feel this age gap most of the time apart from the relationship we have with our phones I guess. All his friends are on social media and seem to post stuff, stories etc. Anyway, I do have Instagram myself.
He's told me a bit about flings/past girlfriends before. I discovered the 'following' tab on Instagram and saw that he liked a post from a girl he had a fling with a couple of years ago. On going on her page I saw that he likes her posts. Not every one. But enough to make me feel weird. She has liked a couple of his too. I just don't really know how much importance to place on this. Our relationship has been very important to me. He supported me when my dad passed and generally makes me feel loved. He recently got me a really thoughtful gift and gifts for my nieces. Not that it's about how many gifts one gets but he does seem to be invested. He invites me to spend time with his family. So I'm confused!
Is this setting the bar really low that I'm worrying about social media likes? I just don't get why he feels the need to show this girl attention. I must admit that I am such a jealous person. I really don't like it about myself. I in no way want to control him but I also want to feel secure about us. We talk about moving in together soon and marriage and I don't want to worry that there is a part of him that is yearning to be back with this girl. She is very beautiful and seems very smart and lovely!
Any advice would be appreciated.
Ps I'm aware that this sounds pretty juvenile. I just want to make sure that I will be sharing my life with the right person.