#2 - It's true what they say about seeing yourself, I remember seeing myself lying in the Hospital bed, like I was standing on a ladder at the foot of my bed, watching the goings-on, but disturbingly even though I recognized it was definitely me (and believe me, it was wayyyy too real to be a 'dream'), the 'me' viewing me was disconnected, if that makes sense ? It was physically me watching but not really 'me' (as if my 'essence' or 'spirit' was still in the guy in the bed).
I asked the question above because of the freakishness the most prominent 'visual' memory ('premonition' type stuff) from my time unconscious is actually playing itself right now.
For example; just today, I went for a walk down my street, and the deserted look (hard to describe) and my walking the same distance away from the houses etc. was unmistakably EXACTLY like I remember from in my coma.
"scary" doesn't begin to describe it. Shivers were coursing down my spine as I thought "how did I know/see this a year and half ago?" "...like What The ...?"
Although I value life and I see 'life' itself like I never have, the fear that I see in the world right now is absolutely "oh get a grip on yourselves" ludicrous to me.
Essentially I've been on the outside of life looking in, and life (the fight to stay alive) really isn't that important to me anymore, in fact, if this (the fear, the lock-down/lack of freedom etc.) is what life has become, even for a short time, I'm just not interested ! I want to 'live' like never before, yet if this is life !? I wish I were dead !