Good day, Hope you all are well.
So I am dating this guy, or well I don't really know now anymore what we are. I am so confused and looking for help and answers. My heart is broken and I don't know what to think of relationships anymore.
So this guy works away. While he was here, we've been fighting a lot. I felt like second best but I have a low self esteem. So while he was here and stayed with me, I am never allowed to see who is texting him. He says all relationships end that way. So this one time he was texting this girl, and I knew it, so I kept asking what she says and we were fighting until finally he showed me. I realized he deleted most of the messages, because she sent a blush face that wasn't there anymore. He said he was planning to meet up with her, but he knew I'd go crazy, that's why he deleted it.
So I am not quite over that, so he told me to not freak out while he was at work. So calmly the one day I just asked him if we can post our relationship on Facebook, he got angry, but he did it, so I felt a little more secure. 3 days later he started randomly telling me I pressured him into this relationship thing on fb?! :(
Like he is acting strange and whenever I state any of my feelings, he gets angry and it always end with me being sorry and feeling sad and thinking of what I could've done otherwise.
So the one day, he said to me that he saw that I took off my relationship status on Fb, but it's fine cause he took his off also:( ....I never took it off, and then a bomb went off. I think my Fb was hacked, and for some reason I think he wanted to fool people.
So now we broke up, but he says he still wants to get back together and he loves me. That I made a big scene over nothing, he will put his status up again and I should stop being so insecure. I feel stupid, I feel numb. I don't know what's going on. It's like I feel crazy, over something so stupid as Fb. So childish. But what can I do?
I haven't heard from him in 3days now, while we spoke everyday, should I text him?
because I don't know what to really say, he wants me to make it up and say sorry to him and love him.
My mind is going crazy over here. Because maybe he'll just take advantage again. He had some good parts in him, but I just feel like I am always the one crawling back, like he rarely ever apologise. I want him to reach out to me, but what if he never does:(
Any advice please.